Money time again, been having trouble sleeping figuring out what the hell it is exactly that I'm doing. After I got a raise, I get fired because they can't afford to pay me so go figure that one. Again here without a job and I can't help but begin to question what the hell I'm doing, how do people decide what to do? Everyone has their own story and I hope one day when my last chapter is written that it's worthy of reading.

Time to get a passport and consider overseas endeavors. I found a place today that sells Leines honey weiss so I picked up a 6 pack and enjoyed some brewskis for the first time in a couple of weeks on a hot day. Yesterday someone cranked up the heat and we reached 94, today was 89 but it's a "dry" heat. Really I think it's pretty badass because it feels good as I hear it didn't reach 50 in MPLS today so you make the call.

At 9 tonight I walked down to the intramural fields 2 blocks from my place to see what was going on, and it turns out the UT (University of Texas) IM softball championship was on the docket so I picked a side sat down in the bleachers and talked to everyone I could for the whole game. A beautiful blonde UT gal wrote me a list of places to see and things to do for me titled "Morgan's to do list" which includes some places I haven't heard of so I will check them out. They made fun of me for being from Wisco/MN which was pretty funny to me because I told them it doesn't make a lick of difference where you're from, only thing that matters is who you are. I've been told at least a dozen times since I got here that I have a midwest or chicago accent, and everytime I say "thank you!", the midwest and chicago are great places!

Before that I went bowling and there's a summer league starting up next week and another great looking gal that works at the bowling alley so you can guarantee I will be there on Wed. If I keep at it I will bowl a sanctioned 300 game and get my 300 ring.
A couple days ago I went hiking up to mount bonnell to enjoy a gorgeous sunny afternoon overlooking the city and river from the northwest.



I'd love an engineering job. A job that is amazing and when I go in to work I can say to myself "Morgan, this is really amazing what you get to do". A job that makes a difference in improving the world around me, and a job that I get to use my knowledge talents and intelligence to make things better. After all, that in essence is what engineering is all about. After consideration apparently I'm going about landing one from the wrong perspective. I have some ideas that I'm not afraid to try. I'm not afraid of failure - I'm like a kid. Ask a kid to do something interesting or out of the ordinary and they are always up for it, they are not afraid that they might not be the best at it nor are they afraid to give it a shot. Being afraid of failure is something that we learn to do - "don't do that, you're no good", "if you do that, then XXXXXX will happen" and we learn to not take chances and not try things that might be amazing. I'm not going to lose my house because of a mortgage, I'm not going to endanger myself or my kids, and I'm certainly not risking my career. I love kids and family, having a house is good and all but I prefer not to be locked down because it limits opportunities. Point is to not ever give up. No point in being afraid and no point in not giving it your best effort every single time.

I think there is a place locked away in everyone's mind that every now and then wonders what things might have been like if they made a different decision at critical points in their life. And that, Paul W is why you need to take the job in Taiwan.

I'm trying to figure out a way to go to Dallas in 2 weeks to get a chance to see my cubbies play the Rangers. I plan on staying at the hostel up there again as I'm familiar with the area.

Tomorrow is a big day, a list of important things is begging to get completed. Make it a day that counts. Make every day a day that counts.